On Saturday, we read through the email from our point of contact at America World who will be guiding us through the dossier building process. We will be collecting lots of documentation over the next few months, researching different health issues that our children might have, as well as learning about how to parent our children who have experienced God-knows-what sorts of heart-wrenching circumstances in the wake of their young years.
Yesterday, we read through the email from another woman at AWAA who is situated in our state and will be walking through the home study process with us. More documents that will need gathered, expenses to cover.
As I sit down to write this, it is safe to say that I am a bit flustered. My heart is feeling overwhelmed, and question after question fills my mind as I try to collect my thoughts and focus on truth.
What is true? What is true is that God has allowed us to come to this step in the adoption process, and the money is there for the next one. We have dear family and friends who have offered their time and talents to help us set up fundraisers and give us advice as we need it. We have friends and family who are praying for us, our children, and offering encouragement in the most timely of situations. What is true is that God is totally in control (1 Chron. 29:11-12; Job 42:2). He is in control right here in our home, and He is in control in India, and He is in control everywhere– because He is God, and there is none like Him (Jer. 10:5-7). What is true is that He is with us (Heb. 13:5), and He is working out all things for our good, to conform us to the image of His Son (Rom. 8:28,29). What is true is that, out of His justice, mercy and grace, He has given us salvation through Christ (Rom. 5:1); and this gift cannot be taken away (John 10:28,29). We are sealed by His Spirit (Eph. 1:13,14), and this is a most wonderful truth! What is true is that our God, the One Who raises the dead (Acts 2:24), the One who has sealed our salvation; He is able to do anything (Jer. 32:27). He does whatever He pleases (Ps. 115:3), His arm is not too short to save (Num. 11:23; Is. 59:1), and nothing is impossible with Him (Matt. 19:26; Luke 1:37). These things are true.
So, as we begin to tackle this seemingly overwhelming mound of paperwork, and set up fundraisers and fill out applications for grants, we rest in the TRUTH. I do not know what this journey will look like as we progress, but God does, and He is the One leading us. I do not know anything about my children, but God does, and He is watching over them. I do not know how we will raise all of the financial support we need, but God does, and He has unlimited resources at His disposal. These things are true, and we are excited to see how God shapes our story in the coming months!
In other related news, we are working on a t-shirt fundraiser! One of my awesome and talented friends made the perfect design, and another friend who does screen printing will be making the shirts for us! (Thank you, thank you to these individuals!) I will also be setting up a PayPal widget on the blog in the next few weeks for any who would like to donate right away. Please continue to pray for all the details of this adoption journey, and especially for two sweet children in India.